I like Conan O'Brien. He's hilarious.

I don't usually stay up late enough to catch him on tv. But yesterday I decided to bake after small group, and the bread was taking a little longer than it was supposed to.

Conan was talking about American Idol, and he said the guy that looks like him got voted off. Then they put up a picture of John Stevens and did a side-by-side shot of Conan. They really do look alike... never noticed the resemblance before.

I was so proud of myself for getting into work 5 minutes earlier than usual. I get ready to walk into the elevator and I drop my badge on the ground and in slow motion, I see it fall through the crack and down, down, down. Luckily, the guy stepping off the elevator was one of the building workers and he took me downstairs to try to retrieve it. I say try because as my luck would have it, I dropped it down the only elevator that goes waaaay down.

So he took me to the building office to report it. Said it wasn't a big deal, the elevator guy was already around so he just needed to climb down and retrieve it. Good thing he was there... otherwise I would have no idea what to do.

I came back into the building, and now that I didn't have my badge I had to sign in to get through. The doorman looked at me with a big grin and said, "Where's your badge, ma'am?" hahaha

This is all the excitement I can handle for one day. Whew!

I've started a new thing, and hopefully it'll help me stay on track with my diet. I started brushing my teeth after lunch. It usually helps me from snacking after dinner, so I'm hoping it'll have the same effect after lunch. Minty fresh. I kind of miss manually brushing my teeth... ever since I got that sonicare.

Now if there was only something that helped me get through the weekends... this weekend I'm having a movie fest with some of my old high school girlfriends... and you know what that means. Just hope I don't go crazy.

I went to a rally? gathering? yesterday after church. It was to promote the traditional marriage. The slogan: Marriage = 1 Man + 1 Woman. There were a TON of chinese people there. Kind of cool to see Asians involved and mobilized.

My mom put up a poster bearing the slogan on our window. I'm scared our house is going to be vandalized. Our next door neighbors had a sign on their window supporting gay marriage for a while... last time I checked they took it down.

I discovered I get really cranky in hot weather. Unless I'm by the beach... My sister wondered how I survived Indonesia this past summer...

GO DANNY JUNG!

I miss those days....

Ok, so I take it back. Miniature golf isn't as bad as I thought. I actually had a lot of fun last night. I guess the hole-in-one I made helped. I don't think I'm turning pro anytime soon, but I got to tell you, that hole-in-one was amazing! It was at the hole where there's a huge metal pole that you push back and forth. So if you don't time it correctly, your ball can be knocked away. hahaha. I didn't stand there to time it exactly or anything. It was pure luck. Overall, I still suck. Doesn't help when you have a 12 year-old trapped in a 31 year-old's body screaming at you to mess up at every hole. But I had a great time.

Next time, we hit up the batting cages. That is, the slow pitch softball. ;)

I went to Park Chow for dinner last night. I really liked it! You guys should check it out.... it's another quaint little restaurant. And the 9th & Irving area has other great places I want to try in the future. I had a halibut sandwhich on pizza bread. It was sooooo good. It's a place I'm going to bookmark and definitely check out again.

Ran into an old acquaintance in that area. It was kind of sad how we put on our fake smiles and asked each other "how have you been?" in that high shrilly voice, although, honestly, we will probably never become good enough friends to really care. The conversation ended with a "take care (have a good life)."

That's something I've been dealing with lately. Haven't yet come to grips with it yet... But sometimes, I wish I could be in a different place, so that I would keep in touch only with the people that really cared about me and vice versa. I feel like being back home spreads me out too thin. So I do keep in touch with a lot of people, but it's only on the surface. We aren't close enough to really genuinely care for each other, but we are close enough that if we don't hang out, we think ill of the other person.

I guess it all comes down to not realizing how lucky I am, and not looking at these friendships as blessings. Because I do have friends that are far away, and they're really lonely. Not in the sense that I have friends in the area, but I'm just in-a-funk-lonely, but literally, they're out there all alone.

I also have friends that are far away that I keep in touch with, but lately, we've been really bad about it. Maybe with some, I feel like I'm never on the receiving end. I get the sense that if I didn't call, we would never talk. It's sad to give up on a friendship just because I'm too tired to always be the one initiating. It's selfishness. But honestly, the more time that passes, the less we seem to have to say.

Someone kick me hard... hard enough to shake off this funk I'm in. But I wonder if I'm alone in thinking this way... or is this a natural part of the transition to young adulthood?

I'm slowly beginning to understand why my nickname was "Tank" growing up. I know my dad jokingly said that to me, but really, it's the truth... I'm solid.

I stepped on the scale last night just for the heck of it. The needle was NOT where it should be. I'm hoping it was a fluke. It was after I ate dinner. Or it was water weight since I took in so much salt this past week. Or wishful thinking... but muscle weight.

I really don't understand. Before I went on this diet, I ate whatever I wanted and my weight was stable. Now I eat much better, but my weight isn't going down. I'm convinced the only way to do this is to starve. I don't that kind of willpower...

Went to a Giant's game last night. My first game of the season... Lilliene got some company tickets, so we got really good seats. I've never sat that close before... I could actually see the players' numbers on the back of their jersey. It was a good game because the Giants won. They needed that win. Despite Lilliene's cheering for the Padres, and the fact that they let the Padres score 2 runs in the last inning with 2 outs and 2 men on base... got a little too exciting in the end for me. I think they went through 5 pitchers that night.

Lilliene and I were really bad in terms of food. But come on, it's a ball game... you HAVE to eat nachos and garlic fries and kettle korn and peanuts... hahaha.... I woke up super dehydrated this morning...

Back to eating healthy today!!!

This weekend was fun. Didn't get to hang out with Sylvia and Jessica as much as I would have liked to. But that also has to do with the fact we couldn't decide what to do. Typical. So I just spent all weekend with Sarah. Had a lovely time. Really, I'd be ok not getting married, as long as Sarah didn't either. Hahaha. We'd have so much fun. You know what else would be cool? If we married twins. Then we'd be sisters.

It's so funny how our office tries to figure out if our boss left for the day or not. We'll stand around and whisper to each other whether we think he left for the day, or if he just went to the bathroom or a meeting. The secretary takes off right after it's established he's gone.

This morning, we theorized he wasn't coming in because he had one person issue the report yesterday, rather than waiting until today. And the secretary's voicemail light was on, which is always a good sign on Fridays.

Yay! I'm so excited... this weekend is going to be FUN!!!

Happy Birthday to one of my most favorite people... ISABEL CHUNG! You guys just don't know, but if we ran a high school poll, she'd win "best all around." Cute, funny, caring, super nice, can dish it with a smile, but can also take things as a joke. I will be accepting applications on her behalf, but just so you know, if you aren't a reformed bad boy or a dork, no need to apply. ;)

It's really sad but I realize as I get older that I can't carry a conversation for the life of me. I can participate in one. And I'm a good participant. But for me to be the one initiating the questions... I suck.

In small group last year, in an effort to get to know my girls better, I tried calling a few times. But it always turned akward, so I just told them what time small group was and hung up. I'm a horrible phone person. I just don't have things to say, I guess.

I love hanging out with people that say witty things and are funny all the time. Your gathering could be a dud, but once this person shows up, everyone has fun. You know, the person that can tell a really good story, or asks really good questions and puts you at ease. I wish I could be like that. I think that's why I'm really attracted to those kinds of personalities. Just because I'm not.

But I promise, I can laugh it up with you. Even if it's at the expense of me...

Went out to dinner with Kenneth yesterday on Clement. It's a really cute area. Quaint, as Kenneth called it. Definitely will go back and check it out again. Great date course, if you're ever in need of one. haha. Too bad it was lost on us. We went to a restaurant called "Q." Then headed over to a cute cafe across the street.

While I was waiting for Kenneth (because he got lost), I took my time and walked around. A LOT of dim sum places... found this one place my mom likes to get chicken jjim man doo. There's a really quaint little bookstore that sells a whole bunch of random books too.

I love discovering new things in the city. More to come...

I watched "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" last night with my sister. Very different movie than what I'm used to, but I enjoyed it. Need to go over it in my head a few more times to make sense of it.

I went in to talk to my boss about completing my 6 month performance review. I can't believe it's been that long already. I'm excited to see what the next year brings. Hopefully, more work. :)

I lost self-control this weekend, but not to worry, I found it hiding under the bed. Diet is back on, but I will spare you the details from now on. I'm determined to SHOW you the difference, not whine about the lack of it.

My newest project: I always have a hard time picking out restaurants in the city. So I have this mini notebook I'm going to carry around in my wallet. If I go to a new restaurant that I like, I'm going to write it down just so that if we happen to be in a neighborhood and can't figure out where to eat, to the book we'll go. Don't expect too much yet... I'm the type that likes to go to the same restaurants over and over again.

It's 4pm on Friday and I'm still at work. Boss won't leave....

I know, I'm spoiled.

Day 12: Decided to weigh myself this morning, seeing that I'm going to be semi-ending my diet tomorrow. Total tally for 11 days: 6 pounds. I'm gonna use this as a reminder to not go crazy with the dim sum tomorrow. You don't know how excited I am to eat whole-wheat anything and fruit!

I'm such a bad friend... just haven't been keeping track of dates. But

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH!!!!!

Valley Fair is a ridiculously large mall. You know it's big when you get lost inside the mall. There was so much stuff to look at that I couldn't shop. That's a funny concept to me. You would think, more selection, therefore more purchases. But I just got so sick of seeing so much junk by the end of the night I was too tired to sort through it.

Another highlight from the Clay Aiken concert I forgot to mention: He sang a Steven Curtis Chapman song, who just so happens to be my favorite all time musical artist.

I went to the Kelly Clarkson/Clay Aiken concert last night. Those two can sing~! They can belt it out, and it seems so effortless.We went for Lilliene's birthday. Man, she was loving it. Of course, I enjoyed it too... I just didn't go crazy like she did.

It amazed me to see pre-teens hooched out... I'm guessing to see Clay. On our way to the Arena from the parking lot, we saw a girl, she had to be 12, wearing the shortest mini-skirt I had ever seen.

It's funny how Kelly is the original American Idol, and Reuben is the second Idol, yet, Clay seems to have the greatest following. The crowd just went crazy for Clay. Wonder if it's more than just the dork-turned-popular appeal.

We sat pretty close to the stage, only we had side seats. So I got a lot of profile shots, unless they walked towards our side of the stage. I got some pretty good pictures... looks like I'm in the first row because they're so up close. But really, they're just pictures of the projection on the screen. hahaha. I did what I could.

I love Farmer's Market :)

In an attempt to change my look, and at my sister's prompting, I braided my hair last night before I went to bed. This morning, my hair looked really good. Nice and wavy. I moussed it up, went to work. It's 11am and my hair is already looking limp. I hate having flat, straight hair. Won't hold anything... mousse, gel, hairspray. I'm hoping my hair will evolve into that messy-sexy-grunge look by the end of the day, and not just a dirty mop.

Some random thoughts:

1. I think I'm going through puberty. I'm breaking out like crazy.

2. Sarah thinks my insomnia-like symptoms are due to the fact that I go to sleep hungry, and I wake up hungry.

3. I'm cutting my diet 2 days short to eat dim-sum on saturday.

4. I'm going snowboarding April 17. Didn't know they still had snow, but apparently, the parks are open till May.

I woke up at 7:45 this morning. Very late for someone that needs to be out the house by 8. I remember thinking I must have turned off my alarm but just didn't remember because I was so exhausted. That's happened before. Turns out I still made it to work on time. I pulled out my cell phone to put it on silent, and it went into 'normal' mode instead. That's when I realized I didn't change my phone back to normal mode after small group last night, so my alarm did ring... only my phone was on silent. I'm glad today is friday.

Day 4: I'm getting a bit tired of salads. On the plus side, I'm still liking the eggs. I made some peanut butter cookies yesterday made from splenda, egg, and natural peanut butter. Tastes pretty good. I offered it to my coworkers, they refused. Haha. Said if it was a diet cookie, it'd probably taste nasty. My feelings aren't hurt though.. they're missing out.

I think I'm having way too many nuts than I'm allowed. Sarah and I used to inhale peanuts when we were on this diet last time.