It's really sad but I realize as I get older that I can't carry a conversation for the life of me. I can participate in one. And I'm a good participant. But for me to be the one initiating the questions... I suck.

In small group last year, in an effort to get to know my girls better, I tried calling a few times. But it always turned akward, so I just told them what time small group was and hung up. I'm a horrible phone person. I just don't have things to say, I guess.

I love hanging out with people that say witty things and are funny all the time. Your gathering could be a dud, but once this person shows up, everyone has fun. You know, the person that can tell a really good story, or asks really good questions and puts you at ease. I wish I could be like that. I think that's why I'm really attracted to those kinds of personalities. Just because I'm not.

But I promise, I can laugh it up with you. Even if it's at the expense of me...