I went to Park Chow for dinner last night. I really liked it! You guys should check it out.... it's another quaint little restaurant. And the 9th & Irving area has other great places I want to try in the future. I had a halibut sandwhich on pizza bread. It was sooooo good. It's a place I'm going to bookmark and definitely check out again.

Ran into an old acquaintance in that area. It was kind of sad how we put on our fake smiles and asked each other "how have you been?" in that high shrilly voice, although, honestly, we will probably never become good enough friends to really care. The conversation ended with a "take care (have a good life)."

That's something I've been dealing with lately. Haven't yet come to grips with it yet... But sometimes, I wish I could be in a different place, so that I would keep in touch only with the people that really cared about me and vice versa. I feel like being back home spreads me out too thin. So I do keep in touch with a lot of people, but it's only on the surface. We aren't close enough to really genuinely care for each other, but we are close enough that if we don't hang out, we think ill of the other person.

I guess it all comes down to not realizing how lucky I am, and not looking at these friendships as blessings. Because I do have friends that are far away, and they're really lonely. Not in the sense that I have friends in the area, but I'm just in-a-funk-lonely, but literally, they're out there all alone.

I also have friends that are far away that I keep in touch with, but lately, we've been really bad about it. Maybe with some, I feel like I'm never on the receiving end. I get the sense that if I didn't call, we would never talk. It's sad to give up on a friendship just because I'm too tired to always be the one initiating. It's selfishness. But honestly, the more time that passes, the less we seem to have to say.

Someone kick me hard... hard enough to shake off this funk I'm in. But I wonder if I'm alone in thinking this way... or is this a natural part of the transition to young adulthood?